For all my life, I’ve pretty much been a low-profile person who never liked being in the centre of attention. Some of my friends would say that I’m a closet mugger, especially when I love doing things on my own quietly.
I’d say I enjoy having personal space and quietness and have no problem dealing with solitude… such that I don’t need people to be around for motivation or affirmation.
As written sometime earlier, you know how some things change when everyone knows about it? Simply because everyone thinks he/she is part of it now.
Contrary to the sentence, I (finally) came out of the closet by setting up… sort of like an online portfolio yesterday. It’s the kind where friends would know about it and the public could view it.
When I started this blog, my main aim was to make it my portfolio and include a tiny blog section where I could share my writings. Oh right…
Then again, given my cautious nature, I was reluctant to “bare it all” so my blog was reduced to how it’s like today. Haha okay, not really THAT bad, but I just remained as a closet blogger.
Most of my friends don’t know that I’m blogging here, and I’d admit this makes sharing much much easier too. I don’t have to “account” to anyone about my life when I’m out of here.
I shared some of my works here, but it’s nothing like a full public showcase, with links being circulated around to try to generate publicity.
When the buzz started, I was literally having cold hands and feet thinking about what I’ve just done. I know I overreacted… to the extent of not having a good night’s sleep yesterday.
The good thing though – people finally saw my work and know I CAN draw despite knowing that I’m an art teacher (duh!). Hahahaha!
Isn’t that always the case? To get to somewhere, you need people to notice and talk about you, and shamelessly shove your work into people’s faces.
The truth is if nobody knows about you, you can’t go far.
There’s no turning back now though, because that would leave a really bad impression on others. Let’s just say, perhaps I won’t be a closet blogger… soon enough if things work out.